Someone's got to take responsibility, haven't they?
[Isn't that the grown-up thing to do? To own your wretched decisions, instead of trying to push the blame onto someone else? You get told again and again that what happens is your fault, your fault, why are you like this, you horrible brat? You're not worthy of being included with the wife and child someone wants to see again. You're not exactly the greatest person. You're not even human, you're just pretending to be one. You're not welcome, kids like you should be burning in hell, you're the one standing in the way of everyone's hopes and dreams.
How long is it going to take, they wonder, until they think the way Frisk wants them to think? Until they can tune all of that out.
How long until they even progress to the "you sort of know it's not your fault but tell yourself it is" stage that Frisk seems to be suggesting now? It does feel like their fault. Of course it does. Nobody made them accept something that could be as dangerous as magic. Nobody forced them to coerce Frisk into starting an encounter. They could have waited. Could have considered the potential to do magic satisfactory enough and never try to experiment. Could have answered in a way that would make Frisk feel better, instead of twisting this into a drawn-out, frustrating exercise in trying to fix someone who doesn't even want to be comforted right now. Nobody's going to come out of this feeling accomplished.
They try to think of more snail facts, more diversions. Nothing comes to mind.
So they just... sigh. Hollowed out, defeated, devoid.]
I just wanted fire magic. Not... not this. I thought maybe if other Charas had earned it somehow, maybe I could earn it too. What are the other Charas doing that I'm not? Why am I the only one who messed it up?
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[Isn't that the grown-up thing to do? To own your wretched decisions, instead of trying to push the blame onto someone else? You get told again and again that what happens is your fault, your fault, why are you like this, you horrible brat? You're not worthy of being included with the wife and child someone wants to see again. You're not exactly the greatest person. You're not even human, you're just pretending to be one. You're not welcome, kids like you should be burning in hell, you're the one standing in the way of everyone's hopes and dreams.
How long is it going to take, they wonder, until they think the way Frisk wants them to think? Until they can tune all of that out.
How long until they even progress to the "you sort of know it's not your fault but tell yourself it is" stage that Frisk seems to be suggesting now? It does feel like their fault. Of course it does. Nobody made them accept something that could be as dangerous as magic. Nobody forced them to coerce Frisk into starting an encounter. They could have waited. Could have considered the potential to do magic satisfactory enough and never try to experiment. Could have answered in a way that would make Frisk feel better, instead of twisting this into a drawn-out, frustrating exercise in trying to fix someone who doesn't even want to be comforted right now. Nobody's going to come out of this feeling accomplished.
They try to think of more snail facts, more diversions. Nothing comes to mind.
So they just... sigh. Hollowed out, defeated, devoid.]
I just wanted fire magic. Not... not this. I thought maybe if other Charas had earned it somehow, maybe I could earn it too. What are the other Charas doing that I'm not? Why am I the only one who messed it up?