fulllifeconsequences: (Will I live in shame)
Chara ([personal profile] fulllifeconsequences) wrote 2016-10-10 07:57 pm (UTC)

[Why's "someone" gotta be them? They don't even bother to answer a question as pointless as that.

What did they hate most about humanity? "Not my problem." Crying out for help, and nobody comes. "Are you sure you weren't leading them on?" Like they must have been asking for it. Imposing a barrier on a people who did nothing wrong, purely out of fear for what they might, hypothetically, do. Expecting them to be the ones to take up the task of fixing that barrier, instead of surrendering SOULs in willing repentance. Shifting blame to whomever happened to be powerless enough that they couldn't protest it. If it's not them, it won't be anyone.

Besides, Frisk knows what they've both been taught. If you've got some kind of special power... well, they get it, right? If they've got the gall to not even be human, to just walk around masquerading as something that's supposed to be here... there must have been a reason for it. There must be some role they were meant to fulfill. Otherwise... why are you even alive? They shouldn't exist. They're supposed to be dead. They should be burning in hell.]


Falling first isn't the luxury you might expect it to be.

[Being a boss monster, though... they can't argue that. Ha ha.

They tell themselves to stay still, to bunch their hands up into tight fists and use every second of ache as their nails dig into the meat of their palms as a chain-link fence. Don't touch. Don't touch. They don't want comfort, they don't need it, they hate touch, they think this is stupid.

But they reach out and seize Frisk's hands with a desperation they don't understand.

They regret it almost immediately. Hate that they could clamp onto bandaged, fragile fingers with all the abhorrent, vicious strength their fists are so full of. Hate that they're so clingy, so attention-starved, so dramatic, so manipulative. Have some self-control, Chara. You're supposed to be in control, are you not?]


I'm just - I'm sick of it being like this.

[The worst human who fell, the worst Chara, the worst sibling. The worst.]

How else do we make it any better?

[It has to be them that can make it better, right?

Otherwise... otherwise the answer is that nobody will make it better. That it's always going to be this, and that's inescapable.]

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