You think I'm happy with anything I did when I was like that? The way I acted - the way I almost killed you?
[Their tone gets shrill for an awful moment, climbing in pitch and volume, and they - they're being too loud. Too loud, and too terrible. Stop it, Frisk. Shut up, Frisk. Stop taking more than you can give. Stop taking at all. You don't deserve a single moment of anyone's time or patience or sympathy, clearly, because all you've ever done is take advantage of it.
This is what you were waiting for. For people to turn around and see you, and look at what you've done, and decide they're better off alone for it. You tried so hard to push everyone away and now look. You got exactly what you wanted!
So why aren't you happy?]
I hate this, Chara. I hate this. And I'm tired.
[Their voice cracks, unbearably, embarrassingly.]
Everyone. Everyone I love has started to leave, and they're all doing it for my own good and I don't know what to do. Mettaton hates me, and you hate me, and Leonard won't talk to me, and Papyrus is gone, and River's gone, and I guess this - this must be what I wanted all along!
[They're...they're laughing, aren't they? Ha ha, it's hilarious! Free hand tangling up in their hair, yanking at the hanks of it, as if that'll be enough to tear it up from the roots. Chara's offer may as well have been made to an empty, faceless specter.]
M-maybe if I was better, if I was - was less afraid, or less stupid, or if I didn't act the way I did, people wouldn't be leaving.
I didn't - I couldn't say no. I didn't...I was just trying to do what everyone asked. And that's not enough, and n-no one's happy anyway!
[Another ragged burst of laughter. Get it together, Frisk. Act more like Frisk, Frisk. You'll freak them out, scare them away. Well, good. Let them slam the door on your fingers! Let them break them all again! Can't go to Leonard this time, can you? Nope! You ruined that too!]
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[Their tone gets shrill for an awful moment, climbing in pitch and volume, and they - they're being too loud. Too loud, and too terrible. Stop it, Frisk. Shut up, Frisk. Stop taking more than you can give. Stop taking at all. You don't deserve a single moment of anyone's time or patience or sympathy, clearly, because all you've ever done is take advantage of it.
This is what you were waiting for. For people to turn around and see you, and look at what you've done, and decide they're better off alone for it. You tried so hard to push everyone away and now look. You got exactly what you wanted!
So why aren't you happy?]
I hate this, Chara. I hate this. And I'm tired.
[Their voice cracks, unbearably, embarrassingly.]
Everyone. Everyone I love has started to leave, and they're all doing it for my own good and I don't know what to do. Mettaton hates me, and you hate me, and Leonard won't talk to me, and Papyrus is gone, and River's gone, and I guess this - this must be what I wanted all along!
[They're...they're laughing, aren't they? Ha ha, it's hilarious! Free hand tangling up in their hair, yanking at the hanks of it, as if that'll be enough to tear it up from the roots. Chara's offer may as well have been made to an empty, faceless specter.]
M-maybe if I was better, if I was - was less afraid, or less stupid, or if I didn't act the way I did, people wouldn't be leaving.
I didn't - I couldn't say no. I didn't...I was just trying to do what everyone asked. And that's not enough, and n-no one's happy anyway!
[Another ragged burst of laughter. Get it together, Frisk. Act more like Frisk, Frisk. You'll freak them out, scare them away. Well, good. Let them slam the door on your fingers! Let them break them all again! Can't go to Leonard this time, can you? Nope! You ruined that too!]
Ha! Ha ha!